In the beggining when we broke off, I felt that god was very unfair to me. He took away someone away from me so suddenly and leaving me to despair. I thought that he was very heartless to leave someone whom he had loved for the past 5 years just like that. I cried bitterly for many nights, losing all my appetite-even my favourite food was nolonger palatable. I foolishly refused to accept the fact that i have already lose him.





Now after having cooled down, I finially understand that he did it probably with a reasons. It's true that we wouldn't be happy even if we are back together again. The thing i wanted from a bf is something which he can't give me at the moment and what he can give is not what i wanted.


Of cos we do love each other but after a 5 years long relationship, we are probably too tired to keep trying to change for each other. It is now probably a good time for us to take a break.

It'd be very unfair to keep trying to tie him down too for the sake of being together.. And of cos I still do care abt him. He'll still be one of the most important person in my life.. Not only a passe-by but someone who changed my life and shared precious moment with me..



But right now i guess i really don't know what i really want too.. Let us ponder over what we really wants and now it's a good time for me to go do things i never thought i would do with him with mi. I guess i've been living under his shelter for a long time. It;s now time i should move out of it and it's time for me to grow up..

Songs dedicated to him: http://iluvshe.imeem.com/music/carepnLp/hai_shi_hui_ji_mo_selina/

vernette says 7:16 PM