Today the most unexpected person called me.. I thought he would never call me again after how bad I treated him previously. Anyhow, we had a pretty good talk. He can sense that I wasn't too happy but this time, I couldn't tell him about my problems.. He's a really nice guy and he has never failed to cheer me up with all the silly things he said.

He kind of hinted to me that he is willing to be there for me no matter what happens and that kind of brought our conversation to an end cos I really don't know what to say. I really can't commit myself to anyone before i get my feelings sorted out.. Something which will determine the rest of my life.. Haiz.. Sometimes, i really thought to myself if god is fooling me.. Evrything just comes to me at the wrong time..

Not knowing what to say, i just gave an excuse and ended the call abruptly.. He sms and asked if i wanted supper last night and that he had bought me some gifts from overseas. I really don't dare to do so as i'm afraid i'm gonna lead him on again.. Will he be the one? I really don't know. He just seems like my best friend but i really dun wanna lead him on. If only i can tell him my problem.

vernette says 6:34 PM